The Lone Early Days

How people remember their childhood days? Obviously when you see any kid is playing in park or walking by holding their parents’ hand. Or when you see any small kid is crazy about any unnecessary things. Some people recall it in other way..! May be, they see those kids putting their hard labour to fulfill their family responsibility at very small age.

In my case the childhood was bit closer to the last option…!

Here I’m writing about my childhood. The good and bad moments that I had faced during my childhood. That moment which bring tears in my eyes and very precious smile on my face also. Such a childhood changed me and my way of thinking the entire life. And off course such early days gave me enough potential and maturity in little age…

I still remember that day when I was obstinate about a pretty dress. I wanted that dress but mom didn’t give it. I had cried a lot and finally slept. I had never cried before for any thing as I did on that day. That was the 1st day of my childhood when I was crazy about something.

My first obstinacy, but alas..! I could not make it finally. Few days later I heard my mother was talking to someone about me. She murmured in soft voice

“If I entertain the obstinacy of Guriya(my pet name), all the other child those who are younger to her start follow her. And we can not fulfill the obstinacy of all kids. I think she is enough grown up to tolerate the situation and she should realize the truth, she is the eldest daughter and should know all her responsibilities as early as possible. She should sacrifice all the liberation whether she like or don’t.”

Initially I tried to understand the meaning and the gravity of the situation but as that moment I was too young to understand the meaning of all the words. But gradually I started to realize the meaning of that conversation. My Jaws got stiffer trying to adopt all the responsibility in little age. Couple of days later I stopped complaining for anything and I first try to avoid which I love the most (even till date…) the IDIOT BOX. Most of the time I watched cinema, listening to music etc... Gradually implies the same to other stuff like delicious food, playing stuff like toy or any good dress.

Gradually I grew up, at the age of eight I found work load on my little shoulder. Usually my daily time table was as follows

“At morning first I helped my mom at kitchen then went to tuition. After coming back, I had to prepare myself and my younger sister for school. After returning back from school again helped my mom at kitchen then if I had enough time,i was asked to take care of my little sister. Finally at night I had to finish my pending home work and went to bed.”

Every day I saw kids of my age playing around outside my home. I tried to join them several times but I failed. When I was in 5th standard I expertise in most of the kitchen job. Those hard works made me mature at very little age in all aspects.

The only thing which I ever got in childhood that was study related stuffs. I was very fond of reading story books and current affairs. Since one year old, I was much closed with my ‘BABA’ (my grandfather) and yes I’m the most beloved granddaughter of him till today. Since the age of one I followed him every where 24X7 basis. If any one tried to hurt me he used his full potential and start commotion. At the age of 6-7 Baba realized my interest in reading books, he handed over me various magazines and GK books. Due to take care of my younger sister I stopped playing outside and to avoid loneliness start reading and listing songs.

In-spite-of various boundaries and restriction whenever I got chance I stole money from my grandmother or stole fruit from neighbor’s tree and then mother caught me red handed and thrashed me. There are so many incidents which I could not write here but still that time and those days are very precious to me. I know that childhood memories are very-very special for every people, the perfect alloy of bitter and sweet experiences.

Perhaps till today I love the LONELINESS and my best friends are book, song and cinema. Well I realize my early days this manner and say to myself that " Jo bhi hota hai ache ke liye hota hai" !!!!!!!

See you soon Alohaa...